I have been “starting” my blog for a few months now. I know that sounds crazy and if you told me in October that I would still be working on getting this off the ground I would have said YOU were crazy! I can give lots of excuses for why I’m not further ahead than I wanted: I have 3 young kids, I run my own freelance graphic design business, I like to work out, I have to clean my house, do laundry, etc. But in reality, starting a blog with the goals I have set for myself is a pretty big task, bigger than I originally thought. One huge thing that I didn’t expect is that this venture has been a very personal one.
Creating this blog has taught me a lot about myself: my views, my goals, my capabilities and my expectations. It’s been quite a journey uncovering those things but sometimes when you open one door, lots more doors appear. I’m not sure I can truly articulate all the things I have learned yet. I do know that I have to stop trying so hard and worrying so much. Let things just be. And that everything won’t be perfect. Whew, I said it! That’s one realization I’m not good at accepting. Not to say that everything I do is perfect – far from it! I am filled with imperfections! Right now I am surrounded by two overflowing baskets of laundry that need to be folded, nothing in my fridge for dinner tonight, bills that need to be paid, and a naughty 1 year old puppy who just jumped up on the FedEx delivery man. Oh, and I forgot the best part, I am sitting at my desk in long johns, sweats and and old T-shirt with holes in it. Sounds pretty perfect, right??
So why is it that when it comes to starting my blog I am expecting perfection? Maybe it’s not that I’m expecting perfection but that I just want my blog to be a true and accurate reflection of myself – imperfections and all. Sometimes uncovering new things about ourselves are the most challenging things to learn. So bear with me, and my venture into the world of blogging. I know I will keep trying and keep worrying, probably both too much. Maybe my New Years resolutions could be just that: don’t try so hard, or worry so much and just let things be. I think I’ll give it a try….